Love brings pain, And with it loss, I lie here again, Feeling guilty for being cross, But still I hope, And still I fear, That I will hang by the rope, Of what I long for so dear, Crushing my heart, Waiting for change, The more we are apart, The more it feels strange, A unknown grief, For what could not be, Brings a small relief, Less for you to flee, The tighter I held you, The more you pulled away, And now I fear its true, That you will never stay...
Thunder and lightning by kairi-the-bat, literature
Literature
Thunder and lightning
A storm in the summer, Piercing icy blue, Crimson and copper, The flames they only grew, One like thunder, Terrifying and mighty, The lightning falls under, And neither tread lightly, A whirlwind of lust, Kissing in the rain, Testing the trust, Risking all the pain, A almost perfect pair, Just mismatched in time, Left gasping for air, Intoxicating and sublime...
Why do I miss you?
Why do I long?
For a love that was never,
For a love that was wrong,
We wouldn’t work out,
That much is true,
Cause I just couldn’t,
Come between him and you,
How can someone so good,
Stand by someone so bad,
When they know what a monster,
He becomes when he’s mad,
You lifted my spirit,
You woke up my heart,
Found a way inside it,
Though we’ve always been apart,
You treated me like a human,
Instead of just some dirt,
Like I am more than just,
What’s underneath my shirt,
You knew my darkest secret,
Knew my deepest fears,
Knew things that had troubled me,
Like you’d been here years,
You
It’s easy to hide,
Easy to ignore,
The feelings inside,
That are different to before,
It’s easy to run,
Easy to pretend,
While chasing the sun,
I’ll say you’re just a friend,
Can’t look you in the eye,
Can’t get myself too near,
It’s harder to hold the lie,
With you the rest disappears,
Im not ready for the fall,
Too tired for the chase,
Can I risk it all,
If you join the race,
One look took my breath away,
My heart skipped a beat,
So little you had to say,
To make me feel defeat,
I wish I could know,
What’s going on in your head,
But you never show,
Only baffle me instead,
I count
I see you Judas over there,
I see the way you stop and stare,
What’s with the way you look at me?
Is it curiosity?
Or do you wonder,
Just like me,
Why hearts thunder,
When together are we,
He’d hate us,
if he found out,
But I just want to
scream and shout,
About the way that my heart sings,
Wants to tell you the slightest things,
About my day,
About my fears,
But what do I say?
Chance disappears,
We both turn away,
Run from our minds,
Maybe one day,
Love we will find...
You don’t know me,
You know my secrets,
We have history,
We have regrets,
I look at you,
You look at me,
When you do,
What do you see?
Do you see beauty?
Do you see pain?
Would you stick to your duty,
If you felt the same?
We’ve barely spoke,
Shared hundreds of words,
Around you I choke,
My chest filled with birds,
Dying to be free,
Dying to get out,
Do you see?
How I want to shout,
To call out your name,
To hear your voice,
Would I be to blame,
If you had to make a choice?
Could you save me,
From myself?
Could you be,
Thinking the same yourself?
When I’m near you,
The noise stops,
I don’t know what to do,
My heart
I’m dancing alone,
Feeling free,
Dreaming that you,
Are here with me,
The lyrics they call,
Resonate in my soul,
I just wish I had you,
To make this symphony whole,
I wonder how you’d feel,
To see me here now,
I wish I could read you,
Some way some how,
I wish I was confident,
I wish I was strong,
I wish I could tell you,
And not feel so wrong,
Now this heart beats,
Once again in its cage,
I find myself putting,
My mask on your stage...
I walk alone,
Through the night,
Nothing but the,
Stars in sight,
I drift on the breeze,
Trail through the trees,
Making me calmer,
When life brings me to my knees,
I follow your words,
Try to find my place,
Cause even if I run,
No one will give chase,
I long for someone,
To understand,
Even if only,
To hold my hand,
Someone to listen,
Someone to care,
Someone to be there,
When my mind is so unfair,
Could it be you?
Will you look and see?
Will you think one day,
The one for you is me..?
I want to tell you the world,
All of my secrets,
All of my truths,
Even the regrets,
But I can’t trust you,
Can’t let you in,
Can’t let myself live you,
Cause that’s how it begins,
I fall too hard,
I fall too fast,
I fall for the loves,
That can never last,
I don’t know you,
You don’t know me,
I know our hearts,
Just aren’t meant to be,
I can’t look at you,
I don’t ever dare,
So afraid I will see,
Someone to love there,
So I run and I hide,
I just laugh and lie,
Then the loneliness hits,
And I just want to cry,
I felt so numb,
Until you awoken,
This fragile heart,
That has already be
Dare I look?
In case I see,
That you are more,
Than what I want you to be,
I can’t let my self,
Fall for you,
So I’ll resist,
And try to get through,
I can’t help but wonder,
What you think of me,
Especially since you,
Make me feel free,
I could walk,
For miles with you,
Don’t want it to end,
Don’t know what to do,
I can’t let you in,
Cause then I might fall,
Have to hold it back,
Keep up the wall,
Have to hide what I feel,
Hide what I think,
Cause if I don’t,
I fear I’ll sink...
Why do I miss you?
Why do I long?
For a love that was never,
For a love that was wrong,
We wouldn’t work out,
That much is true,
Cause I just couldn’t,
Come between him and you,
How can someone so good,
Stand by someone so bad,
When they know what a monster,
He becomes when he’s mad,
You lifted my spirit,
You woke up my heart,
Found a way inside it,
Though we’ve always been apart,
You treated me like a human,
Instead of just some dirt,
Like I am more than just,
What’s underneath my shirt,
You knew my darkest secret,
Knew my deepest fears,
Knew things that had troubled me,
Like you’d been here years,
You
It’s easy to hide,
Easy to ignore,
The feelings inside,
That are different to before,
It’s easy to run,
Easy to pretend,
While chasing the sun,
I’ll say you’re just a friend,
Can’t look you in the eye,
Can’t get myself too near,
It’s harder to hold the lie,
With you the rest disappears,
Im not ready for the fall,
Too tired for the chase,
Can I risk it all,
If you join the race,
One look took my breath away,
My heart skipped a beat,
So little you had to say,
To make me feel defeat,
I wish I could know,
What’s going on in your head,
But you never show,
Only baffle me instead,
I count
I see you Judas over there,
I see the way you stop and stare,
What’s with the way you look at me?
Is it curiosity?
Or do you wonder,
Just like me,
Why hearts thunder,
When together are we,
He’d hate us,
if he found out,
But I just want to
scream and shout,
About the way that my heart sings,
Wants to tell you the slightest things,
About my day,
About my fears,
But what do I say?
Chance disappears,
We both turn away,
Run from our minds,
Maybe one day,
Love we will find...
You don’t know me,
You know my secrets,
We have history,
We have regrets,
I look at you,
You look at me,
When you do,
What do you see?
Do you see beauty?
Do you see pain?
Would you stick to your duty,
If you felt the same?
We’ve barely spoke,
Shared hundreds of words,
Around you I choke,
My chest filled with birds,
Dying to be free,
Dying to get out,
Do you see?
How I want to shout,
To call out your name,
To hear your voice,
Would I be to blame,
If you had to make a choice?
Could you save me,
From myself?
Could you be,
Thinking the same yourself?
When I’m near you,
The noise stops,
I don’t know what to do,
My heart
I’m dancing alone,
Feeling free,
Dreaming that you,
Are here with me,
The lyrics they call,
Resonate in my soul,
I just wish I had you,
To make this symphony whole,
I wonder how you’d feel,
To see me here now,
I wish I could read you,
Some way some how,
I wish I was confident,
I wish I was strong,
I wish I could tell you,
And not feel so wrong,
Now this heart beats,
Once again in its cage,
I find myself putting,
My mask on your stage...
I walk alone,
Through the night,
Nothing but the,
Stars in sight,
I drift on the breeze,
Trail through the trees,
Making me calmer,
When life brings me to my knees,
I follow your words,
Try to find my place,
Cause even if I run,
No one will give chase,
I long for someone,
To understand,
Even if only,
To hold my hand,
Someone to listen,
Someone to care,
Someone to be there,
When my mind is so unfair,
Could it be you?
Will you look and see?
Will you think one day,
The one for you is me..?
I want to tell you the world,
All of my secrets,
All of my truths,
Even the regrets,
But I can’t trust you,
Can’t let you in,
Can’t let myself live you,
Cause that’s how it begins,
I fall too hard,
I fall too fast,
I fall for the loves,
That can never last,
I don’t know you,
You don’t know me,
I know our hearts,
Just aren’t meant to be,
I can’t look at you,
I don’t ever dare,
So afraid I will see,
Someone to love there,
So I run and I hide,
I just laugh and lie,
Then the loneliness hits,
And I just want to cry,
I felt so numb,
Until you awoken,
This fragile heart,
That has already be
Dare I look?
In case I see,
That you are more,
Than what I want you to be,
I can’t let my self,
Fall for you,
So I’ll resist,
And try to get through,
I can’t help but wonder,
What you think of me,
Especially since you,
Make me feel free,
I could walk,
For miles with you,
Don’t want it to end,
Don’t know what to do,
I can’t let you in,
Cause then I might fall,
Have to hold it back,
Keep up the wall,
Have to hide what I feel,
Hide what I think,
Cause if I don’t,
I fear I’ll sink...
What is this feeling? by kairi-the-bat, literature
Literature
What is this feeling?
What’s this feeling?
What’s this fear?
Why do I yearn for you,
Even though you aren’t near?
What a strange thing,
That when I think of you,
I just want to sing,
What should I do?
You’ve made me feel,
When I was numb,
How can it be real?
When I feel so dumb,
My heart beats faster,
My mind grows still,
How can I master,
This strange type of ill?
I know that I blush,
When you are near,
I feel the need to rush,
Is this more than just a crush?
You don’t feel the same,
But you turn my brain to mush,
It’s filled with your name....
The silence haunts me,
It screams the truth,
How did we get here,
Me and you,
Shattered and broken,
Lost for words,
So much unspoken,
Our world absurd,
Fighting to breathe,
Fighting to live,
Waiting to leave,
You’ve no more to give,
We can’t move on,
We can’t forget,
Is our love gone?
Our story finished yet?
so last time i wrote my journal i was talking about how me and sherlock had made up and started talking again and been babysitting my brother and sister together and everything was good and wed had random discussions about having a kid together and stuff like that, well since then me and sherlock have done more babysitting and joking on and the usual sort of things, i even managed to bite and bruise him for a change (although he did manage to bruise me worse than other times, this one started bleeding :'() anyway then we've had the weekend where we didnt talk as much partly because i had work and partly because he was spending time with peop
Your touch I crave,
But cannot obtain,
But youre still here,
So I cannot complain.
I accidentally
Brush my hand across yours.
All of my love
Through my touch I outpour,
Hoping you will notice.
But then again,
I hope you dont.
Somehow, I just know you wont
Return this love I have for you.
Here I sit just lost in my mind
wondering just what it would be like
To hold you, to touch you
to know you
You'd never see me in a crowded room
would never even catch your eye
But here I am
with a head full of dreams
and a heart full of emotion
That I'll just never understand
If I could only reach out
and brush this hand upon your flesh
Would you feel it?
would you even notice I'm alive?
Or would you simply feel a flutter
and nothing more?
Even if I could permeate a radiant glow
You wouldn't notice
I'd remain in these shadows
Solitaire in my mournful cries
My tears unnoticed
My heart a shameless relic
No, you'd never fee
You watch him from a distance
You love to see him smile
You wish one day he might be yours
If only for a while
You wish that you could tell him
To have the strength to say,
"I love you and I wish that you
Could feel the same one day!"
Your heart beats as he comes towards you
Only to walk on by
You try to tell yourself you don't love him
Try to believe your lie…
You wish, you dream, you hope, you pray
That you could be together
Maybe if you could make him see
That you two could last forever.....
Who will suicide hurt? by extremerebirth1, literature
Literature
Who will suicide hurt?
Empty and cold inside
Is this all that's left
This narration inside my mind
These thoughts
The ability to have these thought is the only thing keeping me alive
What would it be without them
No pain to think about
Nothing to worry about
I wouldn't need to cry anymore
I'd still be empty, but atleast I wouldn't have to know it
I can't cry anyway
There are no tears left inside
It's like my sorrow is too much to express
But would others cry
What about my parents, my friends, my one true love, would they cry
My parents wouldn't shed a tear
I have to friends to shed tears for me
For me, there exists no one true love
There is no lover to shed a te
I just want to die.
Oh please, allow me
To leave and to fly
Above the blue sea.
I just want to try
To save all of thee
Who fall and who cry;
But you cannot see
My will and my heart!
You're neglecting me
As well as my art.
No more will I be
The ghost that protects
Each of your beauties.
I, too, will neglect
Your so profound seas.
No one sees my soul;
Its brightness will be
Swallowed by the fools.
Oh God, I'm sorry
this is not a suicide note by camelopardalisinblue, literature
Literature
this is not a suicide note
what would change if i left?
would you wear your sadness
like a bullet-- raw and fresh and
slung, chafing, into solemn chambers;
or would you swallow it down
to poison your lungs,
steal your breath & dissolve
the remnants of me?
would you smoke yourself out,
a pyre of anger in one fist
smouldering with resentment--
unfueled but hot and bright and
burning our love to ashes;
or would you hang it,
trailing, coiled around your neck
where it will catch, untenanted,
on shards of me and tighten
to choke you?
would you throw in the towel
and jump, too, unfettered
without my soul;
or would you just breathe butterflies,
an exultation of relief and
I'm on my hands,
I'm on my knees.
You've got me begging,
Begging, please.
Please don't go;
Don't leave me here.
Just hold me close,
Don't hold her near.
You were my life;
My world;
My spark.
Now on my heart
You've left a mark.
It's a large mark;
A break, you see,
That's slowly dominating
All of me.
So now you walk;
You walk away.
Not knowing that
I will die today.
I carry this note hidden in my pocket
In case my suffering has been erased
Honestly, I hope no one will ever read it
It would mean my battles have gone to waste
Every time I see them it brings me memories
The faces of those who push me through
There are times in life there are too many answers
When only questions provide rescue
They all see the weight holding my heart down
My friends and family pursue my health
It makes me feel warm knowing that they're trying
But there are some things you have to do yourself
I realize it's selfish to end my own life
But I am not sure I can push through the pain
There is a reason I havn't signed
it’s like she’s toeing the edge of a cliff and
she’s smiling and she’s deadly
and you’re standing too far back to save her
and it’s just too late because she’s about
to jump.
---
if you want a list of reasons not to commit suicide,
here it is.
1. you have two dogs that will miss you.
they were wagging their tails and smiling
last night when they took you to the hospital
and i couldn’t find the words to tell them
that they should be quiet.
2. you have a car that you cried when you got
and you roll the windows down and blast music
whenever you pick me up from school
and i’m sorry i nev
So as some may know yesterday was my birthday. The first since my marriage went out the window. It’s painful looking at memories from last year feeling so loved having a husband, a home, surrounded by people who wished me happy birthday and acted like they cared. Especially since this year I’ve had none of that. Only a handful of people actually acknowledged it was my birthday or wished me well, I got a total of 3 cards, not even from several of my close family. I know it’s not what you get but my birthday is the one day where I want to feel loved or special and instead I felt lonelier than ever.
I woke up after sleeping fr
Bad habits, we all have them.
Those things we do even though we shouldn’t, but they’re familiar, and can bring comfort. Like they say it’s better the devil you know.
When those habits that made us feel better stop working it can be a strange sense of relief, that you can finally get rid of the negative influence.
My bad habit was my ex. When things got tough or I was going through a manic phase I’d message him and get drawn in again, because I knew he’d give me validation and make me feel better about myself. But at what cost? Seeking his approval I’d do things I knew I shouldn’t. For years he was in
So it’s been years since I last wrote a journal, years even since I posted a poem. I have tried again and again over the years to come back on and update it all but I never get round to completing.
I feel like I owe it to myself to write these things down so that they’re out there, and for my memory to see how things change through the years. So much has changed I barely know where to start.
So the last time I wrote I was talking about Sherlock and me talking about kids and how he said he couldn’t be with me that way and how hard it was. Well twist in the tale, in January 2012 we actually got together as a couple, by Februar
Ok guys, this truly is freaky, the Phone literally rang as soon as I read The last word of this email!!!!!
I am taking the bait - What do I have to lose right?
Hope it works!
Supposedly The Phone Will Ring Right After You Do This.
Just read the little stories and Think of a wish as you scroll all The way to the bottom. There is A message there - then make your Wish.
No attachment on this one.
!
Stories
I'm 13 years old, and I wished That my dad would come home from The army, because he'd been having Problems with his heart and right Leg It was 2:53 p .m.. When I made My wish. At 3: 07 PM . (14 minutes Later), the doorbell rang, and There my Dad was, luggage and all!!
I'm Katie and I'm 20 and I've been Having trouble in my job and on the Verge of quitting. I made a simple Wish that my boss would get a new Job. That was at 1:35 and at 2:55 There was an announcement that he Was promoted and was leaving for Another city. Believe me...this Really works!!!
My name is Ann and I am 45 years Of age. I had always been single And had been hoping to get into a Nice, loving relationship for many Years. While kind of daydreaming(and right after receiving this email) I wished that a quality person would Finally come into my life. That was at 9:10 AM on a Tuesday. At 9:55 AM A FedEx delivery man came into my Office.He was cute, polite and Could not stop smiling at me. He Started coming back almost everyday(even without packages) and asked me Out a week later . We married 6 Months later and now have been Happily married for 2 years.
What a great email it was!!
Just scroll down to the end, but While you do, think of a wish. Make your wish when you have completed Scrolling. Whatever age you are, is the Number of minutes it will take for your Wish to come true. Ex.you are 25 years Old, it will take 25 minutes for your wish To come true).
However, if you don't send this to People in 5 minutes, you will have bad Luck for years!!