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i cannot fly on broken wings
Hate and destruction,
My life brings,
Never to be loved,
With these broken wings,
So let me fall,
Just cut my strings,
And I'll float away,
As the wind sings,
The clock ticks by,
The pendulum swings,
The mourners march,
The church bell rings,
Don't have to remember,
Forget all these things,
No longer will I,
Feel lost in the springs,
I cannot fly,
On broken wings…
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i hate it when we fight
I hate it when we fight,
I hate it when we brawl,
Sometimes it isn't right,
And we don't answer the call,
When the anger is gone,
Depression sets in,
Here everyone looses,
And nobody wins,
We shout and we blame,
We're so much the same,
We're all just pawns,
In some giant's game,
I'd rather not fight,
I'd rather not fall,
Cause when we fall out,
I feel ever so small...
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youre the devil i dance with
You're the devil I dance with,
I'm caught by your eyes,
You leave me feeling breathless,
But you're a demon in disguise,
I can't help but love you,
No matter how much pain,
I feel when I remember,
That you don't feel the same,
I'd do anything it's true,
Just for you to be near,
Though it hurts to be close,
To loose you brings me fear,
So I dance with the devil,
Cause it's all I can do,
I can't fight this devil,
Cause my devil is you...
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gateshead youth assembly
We talk about politics,
We talk about school,
We play games and tricks,
We're just too cool,
We sing and we dance,
We have lots of fun,
We give people a chance,
We get the job done,
We're crazy and random,
Like sisters and brothers,
We lead ourselves,
And raise our voices to others,
There's nothing quite like,
This group of friends,
And though time moves on,
Our memories never end...
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rush of the wind
The rush of the winds,
The freedom of the fall,
The joy under my wings,
As I soar over trees so tall,
Nothing can stop me,
When I take flight,
Not the bright lights of day,
Nor the dark skies of night,
I am unstoppable,
I live for the chase,
I fight to survive,
And I've earned my place,
The thrill of the race,
The whispers of the world,
As I leap into this space,
My wings unfurled...
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I wish
I'll watch you love them,
But you wont see me cry,
Cause if you did,
I would have to say goodbye,
I wish you to be happy,
I wish it on a star,
I wish I can be there for you,
No matter who they are...
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Joy is worth the sorrow
Sometimes it might hurt me,
Sometimes I might cry,
But there are those happy times,
Where I feel like I could fly,
The joy is worth the sorrow,
The good is worth the bad,
If I forgot you tomorow,
I'd miss all the good times we've had,
Yes it may hurt me,
And that fact brings me shame,
But I'd rather see you happy,
Than sad with me to blame,
So I'll soldier on,
Even when it makes me blue,
Cause I dont want to loose,
A friend as good as you...
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Wish you were here
I wish you were here,
Or I was there,
But it isn't that easy,
Life isn't that fair,
I wish you would hold me,
I wish you could see,
That no matter what happens,
Theres no place I'd rather be,
I wish I could hear,
The beating of your heart,
I wish we didnt have to be,
Quite so far apart,
I wish you were here,
To help me stay calm,
To make me feel like nothing,
Can do me any harm,
I wish you were here,
With my heart and my soul,
To make you happy my friend,
That's my only goal...
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simply the best
I love your eyes,
I love your smile,
I love to make you laugh,
Every once in a while,
I love how you listen,
I love how you talk,
I love how sometimes,
We just go for a walk,
I love how we tease,
I love how we fight,
I love how your face,
Lights up my night,
I love how you know me,
I love how you care,
I love how you make me smile,
Just by being there,
I love how you're round,
In the night and the day,
I love how you know,
Just what to say,
I love you,
Thats all,
Nothing more,
Nothing less,
Cause you my friend,
You're simply the best... <3
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sickess lies and pain
years of sickness,
years of lies,
years of pain,
I've tried to hide,
all the secrets I've hid,
I feel just like,
A scared little kid...
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angels fall
I want to laugh,
I want to live,
I want to trust,
I want to give,
But whats the deal,
The point of it all,
How should we feel,
When the angels they fall,
Fall so hard,
Fall so fast,
Fall into a love,
That struggles to last,
They try so hard,
To get back on thier feet,
And hope not to walk alone,
Down this cold dark street...
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just passing by...
A look to the left,
A look to the right,
We're not here to stay,
Soon you'll vanish from sight,
We watch each other,
Through the window pane,
And I wonder if you are,
Thinking the same,
It takes one look,
To catch my eye,
But it wont last,
We're just passing by...
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long to say i love you
I long to say I love you,
I fear to say I care,
I have never felt so blue,
Than when you arent there,
I'd swim across the ocean,
I'd walk along the sand,
To get to where you are,
No matter what land...
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shining stars
Look at the shining stars,
Sparkling in the night,
The bright white of the snow,
Filling up our sight,
The wind is in my hair,
The fire is in my heart,
You make me stop and stare,
Like the earth will fall apart...
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I wonder...
I wonder if you know,
I wonder if id shows,
I wonder what you think,
When my heart sinks,
I wonder what youd do,
If I dissapeared into the blue,
I wonder this I wonder that,
I wont know for a fact,
What it is about who you are,
That shines so bright like a star,
I wonder how I can go on,
Then I think of you and feel so strong,
I wonder if youl feel like me,
But I hope I never see,
I wonder what tomorow will bring,
Till then I'll dance and I'll sing...
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snow just me and you
A shower of snow,
A blanket of white,
Youve no place to go,
On this cold night,
Lets make a snowman,
A angel or two,
Just do what we can,
Just me and you...
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The Girl Pt. 8
The Girl Pt. 8
I wandered through this week in a blur. Trying ever so carefully to keep my sanity. I had no idea what I was doing this whole week. I just made people stay out of my way. I didn’t need them. They all needed to disappear. They needed to die. A bloody, painful death. I could see it now. Terrified faces running away from a figure holding the cold gun. Smoke coming out, after the first bullet has been shot. Oh. What a lovely vision. I can smell the blood as each and everyone of these people die. I still couldn’t read Joshua’s letter. He still doesn’t want me to. I really wish he would let me though. I want to know what is inside it.
I need to know. It’s killing me not knowing. I don’t have anymore patience. It’s all run dry. But, for Joshua’s sake, I will listen to him. After all, he is the reason I’m still breathing to this day. I kissed the picture of him I had in my desk, and set it next to my bed. “ Good night.” I lo
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The Girl Pt. 7
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It was the first week of December. My parents would die on December 19th. Joshua wanted me to kill his parents first. This would sort of be hard for me. Emotionally. They’ve always cared for me. They’ve always wanted me to be Joshua’s girlfriend instead of his friend. They thought it was nice. Even though we were individuals. “ Why them Joshua?” Two taps. He wasn’t going to give me an answer. I opened our leather journal again. Reading what his passage said.
Dear journal,
    She wont ever know. She wont. Never never never! No matter how hard I try, I know she’ll never know. The heart inside me is driving me mad. I want to tell Emily that….
That was it. That was his final passage. He wanted to tell me something. And even though he’s been whispering to me, he hasn’t mentioned this journal once. This saddens me. It was a beautiful night. Just wonderful. I took a moment to step out on my roof.
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The Girl Pt. 5
The Girl Pt. 5
I listened to the thunder rumble. I was shivering as I stood outside. Feeling the wind blow. Watching the leaves fall to the ground. It was Halloween. Josh’s birthday. He would be nineteen today. I walked down the sidewalk to his house. His mother and father were sitting on the porch. They recognized me. “ Emily, why don’t you get out of the storm dear?” His mother said to me. I nodded then walked up to their porch.
“ Thankyou.” I said in a whisper. Josh looked like his father a lot. I never realized that before. “ How’ve you been Emily?” said his dad. “ I’ve been alright.” His mom knew that I wasn’t. She could always read me easily. “ Would you like some tea?” I shook my head. “ No. I… I have to go the store then head home.” His mom nodded. “ Just wait…” she went inside. After a couple minutes, I heard the door open again. She came out with a book. It was the locked
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The Girl pt. 4
The Girl Pt. 4
“ Emily Redrum.” I raised my hand at the sound of my name. It was attendance time. My head was on my desk. My hatred pulsing through me with each heartbeat that echoed in my head. I could feel the dead. I could feel Joshua’s ghost beside me. Whispering in my ear. He was going to help me get rid of them. Get rid of them all. I could hear his words loud and clear. “ Emily. Show no fear. I know we can do this. We can win this. Let’s do this together.”  I nodded. “ I know we can.” I whispered to myself. Apparently to loud, because people turned to look at me. I just glared at them all. Second period study hall was spent with Mrs. Kelly. She looked drained. Who could blame her? I know I wouldn’t want to be a shrink.
“ Now, we need to start making progress. What are you thinking? What are you feeling?” I looked at her and smiled. “ I feel happy.” This made her raise an eyebrow. “ Happy?”
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The Girl Pt. 3
The Girl Pt. 3
Homeroom. I took my seat in the back. Only now, there is an empty seat behind me. I could still see him there. Making me feel like I wasn’t the only one in a different world. We would discuss vampires, witches, zombies. Horror movies. Music. Everything that was nuts in our lives. I smiled a very small smile. It’s sometimes good to remember things. Madison Lucas and Trevor Martin sat in front of me. “ Emily.” She whispered. I looked at her from behind my bangs. “ What do you want Madison?” She had a smirk on her face I just wanted to slap off. I know she’s going to say something rude. After all, she is the school’s bitch. Trevor shook his head at her. Of course, she ignored her boyfriend. I had to give Trevor credit. At least, he never tried to push me over the edge.
She grinned at me now. “ How does it feel to be alone?” “Fine. Thanks.” I said glaring at her now. “ No. I mean, how did it feel to watch the o
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The Girl Pt. 2
   I woke up. The sun was in my face. Senior year will begin today. Joshua wont come pick me up. He wont be able to keep me sane. Just as I kept him sane. No. He's not there. My mother and father are downstairs. I can hear the clank of the spoon hitting the coffee cup. They said Joshua's death was a blessing. How could they say that?!?! Of course. Because they didnt understand. They just didnt understand shit.
  I placed my feet on the floor. It was cold. Like a grave. The whole world was cold. Full of nothingness. I wandered to my dresser to find my clothing for today. I looked at my reflection. There used to be a girl there. Now, I just see a saddened face. I threw my hair brush at the mirror causing it to break. No more looking at me. It just reminds me of my failure.
  I burshed my brace free teeth. Joshua used to pick on me because of my braces. Well, just as friends tease each other. Now, my braces are gone. I look much older than when he died.
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The Girl Intro.
  It's 5:08AM. I'm still awake from the night before. My mother lay asleep next to my father in the next room. There snores seem to echo through the house. I tiptoe downstairs. No lights are on. I love the dark. The way it holds me. The way the devil's arms seem to be around me. A loving embrace.
  I go towards the living room. Looking at my family portrait. I wish it would burn. Burn to hell. Burn it all! I hate my fake smile. I hate the way I can't be myself. No one understands. No one!! Not even me!! Oh. What I would do to have my friend back. If he wouldn't have died, maybe my mind wouldnt be in this state. He taught me how to be strong in a family full of liars. A family full of close-minded lunatics.
I throw the portrait in the fire. Grin as I watch our faces burn. BURN BABY!! first my father's face, then my mothers. Finally mine. I felt the evilness goes through my veins. It was like drug. I was addicted. No rehab for me. I slowly walked into the kitchen. Gra
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Through the Strangers eyes Pt6
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    I went to answer the door. Jesse stood there. " Hey there." He smiled at me. I could see Xavier tense up. As if this Jesse had something to do with him. "Hey Jesse. Come on in." I grinned at him taking his hand. It seemed my friend Xavier was a little jealous. That surprised me. After all, he did murder me. And why would someone murder the one they loved? Rachel came downstairs. "Hey. Who's this?" " Rachel, this is my friend Jesse. Jesse this is my roomate Rachel." Xavier growled. Only I could hear it though. I couldn't help but smirk at him.
   " You think that Jesse and I could have a party here one night?" I asked Rachel. Her eyes got wide. "Of course!! I love parties!!" Rachel took Jesse into the party room so he could decide where to put things. Xavier was growling at me. " What's the matter?? " I said grinning. " To evil for ya?" I touched his cheek. His eyes narrowed. "Don't go against me. I always win." "Oh tisk tisk... Sweety.
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unfinished business pt 8
Unfinished Business Pt. 8
Tonight, my mother is having Derrick over for dinner. I had to be here. “ Derrick is a surgeon.” “ Isn’t that just dandy.” I said sarcastically. “ I really wish you would just give him a chance.” “ I really wish you would give Jimmy a chance.” I muttered. She heard me. “ Amy…” She said with a sigh. “ Stay away from him.” I shook my head. “ You don’t understand mom. I’m just friends with him. You act like it’s something other than that.” Her eyes closed. “ Are you sure he just thinks your friends?” “ Yes. He called me his sidekick.” I laughed at that. She didn’t think it was funny.
Derrick walked in right at five o’clock. He had thinning salt and pepper hair. He was a short guy. I think my mom has lowered her standards. I sat quietly at the dinner table as I watched those two pathetic love birds flirt, and laugh. Nothing makes a teenager
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Unfinished Business Pt. 6
Musical Studies class was very slow. Considering it was the last period of the school day. I noticed something weird about Jimmy. Maybe it wasn’t weird. I probably just didn’t realize how he was always alert. As if something or someone could attack at any moment. “ I’ll pick you up tonight.” He said as we walked to our cars. “ Uhm… I don’t think my mom…” “ Forget about her. I’ll pick you up. Ten o’clock.” I wanted to ask him why but he took off before I could. My mother hated Jimmy. There really wasn’t a reason too. I saw Vince with a girl. Most likely, Clara leaning against my car. “ Hey, Amy. This is Clara.” “ Hey.” “ She wanted to meet you since we’ll be hanging out at the underground show tonight.” Clara had dark red hair and green eyes. Her atitude was shy. “ Nice to meet you.” I tried to sound sincere but, I was to wrapped up in the odd
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Unfinished business pt. 5
Unfinished Business Pt. 5
Jimmy slide a piece of pizza my way. It was Thursday, lunch time. “ Eat, my mortal friend.” He laughed. But, kept his eyes on my throat. “ I’m not really hungry today.” I said and sipped my coke. Laura looked at me. “You okay?” I nodded. “ Just having one of my marvelous days.” She shrugged at my sarcasm and went back to flirting with Seth. Jimmy kept staring at me. “ What?” He shook his head. “ Nothing really. Just thinking.”
A jock came over to our table. “ Hey, Amy. Coming to the game tonight?” I looked up at him. Things were weird here. I missed my old town… where I wasn’t noticed. “ Do I look like the type of person that goes to games?” He chuckled. “No. But, you look like my movie date.” I had to laugh at this one. My dark, gloomy personality would never match with his, look at me, I’m mister popularity personality. “ Your funny.” His s
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Unfinished Business Pt.4
     In the morning, the streets were clear of the corpses. It was as if last night was imaginary. My mom came up to my room. " Amy... honey, time for school." I groaned but got up. I brushed my teeth, showered, and dressed to be on my way to school. I was the only goth there. People stared at me. The teacher did not even take a look at me. " Welcome, Miss..." He looked at the paper and would not say my last name. " Miss Amy." He nodded and pointed to a seat in the back.
    Everyone watched me as I took my seat. There were whispers. A girl infront of me with to much make up turned to me. " You are very brave." I looked at her quizzically. " You were out at night." She said, Wide eyed. Teacher, Mr. Morson, glared at her. " Bethany. Would you please leave Miss Addams alone?" He quickly covered his mouth. I looked at them all. " Is there a problem with my name?" I said to the silent room, filled with wide eyed students.
   Mr. M
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Unfinished Business Pt. 3
    There was confusion in Jimmy's eyes. " We interest you?" I laughed. " Yes. I always knew there was such a thing as vampires." " Odd girl you are." He came close to me. He placed his cold hands on my arms. Sending shivers down my spine. He placed his nose against my collarbone. " Mmmm..." He mumbled to himself. " How delicious you are going to be." He looked back in my eyes, trying to see terror. But, there wasnt any.
   " Well, just let me know before you wish to dine on my blood. I'll be sure to finish my journal." He laughed. " Oh... I wont let you know. It will just happen." He walked off with a tall, skinny, blonde vampire. I should've went back inside. Of course, I did not. I continued to walk through the town. Corpses lay upon the road. The fear still lingered in the dead's eyes. That's when I met another vampire. His name was Seth. He had dark red hair, and black eyes.
    " Hello there." He smirked as he walked by. " He
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Unfinished Business Pt.2
     I couldn't help but notice the darkness in Jimmy's eyes as he said danger. Without questioning him, I went back into my room through the window. I locked it shut. He looked in at me. I saw his fangs. His dark eyes. I felt his eyes watching me. " I'll be back for you." He said to me and went into the darkness. I closed the curtains. It wasnt that I was afriad. I've been trying to prove that vampires were real for some time now. They've always fascinated me. But, to be that close, was overwhelming.
     I went downstairs to see my mom and Jerry snuggling on the couch. This made me gag. I snuck out the front door. As soon as I turned around, Jimmy was there. Blood dripping from his fangs. " Hello, again sweetheart." He grinned. I smiled at him. " I'm not frightened by you." His face looked confused. That was the truth though. I wasn't. He titled his head.  "You interest me Amy. You really do." I smirked. " Well.. your kind i
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Rachel
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Im 18 I love reading writing and drawing.
My bestest sis is rosie prower.
Im on here for fun so if youve got a problem with me i dont care.
I realy appreciate any support that i get so if you have any ideas or advice I'd realy like to hear it.
I dont need to be thanked everytime i fave someones work i just like to show i think people are working well and i like what they put on here.
I love to read and see everyones work i think its great to show that you like it so i always try to fave work that i like.
I also kind of go against myself a lot of the time cause i say you dont have to thank me yet i thank everyone everytime lol
If anyone ever wants to talk I'm here. I love meeting new people and making friends so feel free to talk to me people :D

Current Residence: Narnia
Favourite genre of music: it varies
MP3 player of choice: Ipod touch at the moment
Favourite cartoon character: yuki cross (vampire knight)
Personal Quote: OMFG WE ARE ALL GONNA DIE!!!!!
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so last time i wrote my journal i was talking about how me and sherlock had made up and started talking again and been babysitting my brother and sister together and everything was good and wed had random discussions about having a kid together and stuff like that, well since then me and sherlock have done more babysitting and joking on and the usual sort of things, i even managed to bite and bruise him for a change (although he did manage to bruise me worse than other times, this one started bleeding :'() anyway then we've had the weekend where we didnt talk as much partly because i  had work and partly because he was spending time with people he cares about that were moving away, on saturday night i had some trouble with dylan who is the brother of nathan/crusher, and that had both sherlock and a ex of mine worrying about me and trying to get me to start opening up more about stuff, sherlock even suggested me and him start taking up karate to get fit and be able to take care of myself better. They've also been determined to get me to stop trying to protect them so much when they can protect themselves and it would stop me getting hurt so much but really, its who i am, i cant help but try to protect the people i care about, i mean i've dealt with the pain before, and i'd much rather get hurt myself than have them hurt because of me. so on sunday i ended up with my ex mr x coming back up from university just to make sure i was ok, and to get the truth out of me, i mean id only left out a few things that i knew him and sherlock would kill dylan for, but i was alive and i didnt want them getting upset and doing something stupid, i mean what would i have done if they'd went after dylan and got hurt? it would be forever over my head, so i left out details, and mr x continued to question me and i cried and told him everything, i made him promise not to tell sherlock though, i mean there are some things that i just dont want people to know, they both want to kill dylan enough anyway.
anyway on sunday night mr x went back down to uni and everything was ok ish, me and sherlock were talking and having a laugh, and i was drinking, and then we were a bit iffy and stopped talking which made me moody so mr x ended up being nebby and getting us talking again and we were both watching a movie (sweeney todd :P) and then talking and afterwords sherlock was drinking aswell and he ended up getting lost in a field, and i'd went for a walk to a place me and nathan always used to go and sat in a tree still talking to sherlock, then i managed to fall out afforementioned tree and hit my head off a branch on the way down (smart person i am), anyway then i decided to go and visit nathans grave (this took me past both sherlocks house and the house nathan used to live in) and after sitting talking to nathans grave for a hour or so i got a message from sherlock saying this;
'We need to talk and since your asleep its going to be a one sided conversation, I know you love me and that at times the way we've been it is really confusing, but what I want you to know is I love you but as a friend, I'd hate for you not to be in my life but I need you to be happy and as much as it would hurt me if I thought our relationship was hurting you I would end in a heartbeat (although we've tried that before and it hasn't worked) cause I nerver want you hurting although once again us not talkign would hurt you so I'm screwed either way. I care for you so much that at time I wish I could be straight so we could be together but you deserve so much better, but as a friend I'm alsways goin to be here for you, I have never wanted to hurt you and I know that me going out with your friend must have killed you and I'm sorry that I didn't think about that, and as far as the baby thing I would love to have a child with you cause then at least I know you'd be in my life forever and I'm sorry that I couldn't go through with what would be necessary to have a baby I wish there was some other way, you need to let xanser and others in more including me because we care for you and only want the best for and believe me if I ever see that dylan person he will loose his knads, the times we haven't talked it isn't because I haven't wanted to talk to you its because in all my stupidity I thought it would be better for you, you would never have upset me by talking to me because it hurt everyday that I didn't talk to you. I feel like there is so much more I want to say but I don't know what, I'm glad I'm sitting in the middle of a field because the drunkness and cryingness of me is stupid but when I say this please please please know I mean it in the nicest sense possible with out bitching at you, but even though I know its hard, you need to be happy and you need to find someone who's going to make you happy in every way possible so loving me in the same way I love you might help you find that. And wow I wrote so much in the first message I needed to start another one but just remember I love you and want you to be happy soooo much :) x'
and i just didnt know what to say, i mean he thought i was asleep and after he sent it he realised i wasnt since i was reading the message, and we talked about a few other things while i tried to get my head round what he had said, i mean i couldnt work out whether to be happy or sad for what he said, it just has me thinking about how i actually love him and if i think i can try and love him as a friend instead of the way i love him already, i want to be happy and i want him to be happy, i can deal with him not loving me like i love him, but i dont know how i would cope if he did decide it was hurting me too much and tried to stop us being friends, when he goes on about how him dating my friend must have killed me hes right but really i dont mind that he didnt think about how it would affect me, its his life and i shouldnt stop him dating whoever he wants, i mean in the end i just want him to be happy and if that means i have to watch him love someone else and deal with the hurt then so be it, because i would rather the pain and seeing him happy than loosing him. no matter what i want him to be a part of my life, even if we do end things he will still be a part of me, the tattoo on our wrists makes sure of that. i just hope i can do what he says and find someone who loves me and makes me happy in every way, me and dylan were talking today about a few things and he put a few thoughts in my head about how mr x and sherlock are no good for me and how they only want to hurt me, he then started telling me that they are just proof of stuff that my ex ari said to me last year when he told me noone would love me and that if i love anyone it will destroy them, and i cant help but think he might be right, i mean mr x says he loves me but i wont let myself love him as more than a brotherly type figure, and sherlock i love so much and hes gay so theres no chance of him loving me back this way, i just hope and pray were wrong

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